I wanted to blog yesterday, but my site was on lock down by google. Apparently an ad I am running was hacked on their end and it put malicious code on my site. It is taken care of now.
Saturday for my 365 project I took and posted a photograph of myself. Probably one of the bravest things I have ever done. I’m going to post it here for you to see if you haven’t already. It’s pretty chocking even for me to see. This change in my appearance happened so quickly. I wasn’t exaggerating when I said I was looking like I did when I was pregnant.
Yesterday morning I called the gynecologic oncologist I was referred to. I talked to the PA and she was shocked that I was discharged Friday night. With the pressure the mass is putting on my Vena Cava and my other organs it is an emergency situation. Sadly though, this oncologist will not be seeing me because I do not have insurance. Some doctors take self pay (such as my neuro and rheum) but not all will let you pay on your own.
I called indigent health care and they too had to deny me. Not because they wanted to, but because it is the law. For a family of 5 you must bring in LESS than $700 a month. I was floored. A family of 5 living on lesse than $700? I don’t get it, but it is what it is.
My parents will be arriving sometime around 4pm today. My mom is going to take me to a different hospital and hopefully get me admitted for surgery. We know we will be paying on this for a very long time and we accept that. but we have to get it out of me. If it is cancer it could spread to my other organs. The longer it is there, the more damage it is doing. I can already tell it is affecting my kidney function.
I’m weaning myself off of Amitriptylin. This morning I had a sever headache and shakes and I contribute that to the withdrawl of trying to wean off so quickly.
My friends and family are amazing. I have so many words of support coming in. It truly helps. My children are doing well. We are a strong family and it will take a lot more than this to bring us down. Thank you all for your support. It means the world to us. I will continue to blog as I can, update facebook and continue my 365 project.
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It sickens me that the hospital discharged you and now the specialist wont even see you. I can’t imagine all that you are going through but I am here for you in any way you need me!
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<3 you Brandy
Love you! *hugs*
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Prayers for you and your family. Hope this can be taken care of quick.
I heart you girl…hang in there! XXOO
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As a survivor of breast cancer, I can only offer what my experience was during 8 rounds of chemo and 33 rounds of radiation – it’s all in your head… stay positive. For me, it was a HUGE inconvenience that I did NOT let own me. It will try but girl, you’ve got hundreds if not thousands of us out here praying for you and your family. You will get through this and you will be here to help others do the same.
HUGS and MUCH LOVE,
Stephanie
I’m glad your mom will be there soon! ((HUGS))
Brandy, I seriously love you like a sister and you are one tough cookie. You will persevere. Things will probably be hell before they get better but I know you and you are persistent as hell. You can do this. We will get you whatever you need girl. I luv ya.
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I’m praying for you girl!!! Please keep us updated as much as you can… or have someone in your family do it! I’m thinking of you!
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Thank you so much for the updates. I’ve been reading and thinking about you all the time. I hate that you are having insurance issues and that you are being denied care because of it. This proves how important it is to have coverage. I wish you and your family the best and just wanted you to know that I’m thinking of you.
Brandi, I don’t know you. I read about your situation on MommyGoggles.com. I am so sorry you are going through this. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. You sound like you have such a great support system, you can conquer anything together. Good luck at the different hospital. I pray they admit you.
xoxo I’m here.
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I can’t believe this is happening to you. You, the big badass chica from GC who helped me whenever I needed it and was there for me when I needed it. You deserve the world on a platter, not the world trying to squish itself inside of you. I’m praying for you. You’ll kick the shit out of this thing and we’ll laugh about it when I make it down to Texas one day.
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Ok, well there is a game plan in place and we will see what you tough as nails mama can accomplish. I have EVERY belief that this will be a non-cancerous mass. I mean you didn’t name it Spike for nothin, right?
Some how, some way, we will get you through this. We all love you and are praying for you. Besides, bald is beautiful. You can just cut it all off at the start of the Chemo and donate it to locks of love…then dye yer scalp magenta or something. LMAO
.-= Shan @ Last Shreds Of Sanity´s last blog ..Brandy’s Battle: Can You Help? =-.
I’m sending positive thoughts. My mom had a growth the size of a cantelope removed when she had her hysterectomy years ago and it was benign and she was fine. I hope that helps the anxiety a little. Sent money and prayers.
Stay strong Brandy! we’re rooting for you!
You can go threw the ER, they can NOT refuse you by law! They must treat you! And you can push to have bills written off once you are done. Most is based on your income and many also have grants, but you have to ask about them. They don’t offer the help. I am praying for you!
Just thinking about ‘healthcare’ in this country makes me sick, ugh. Yet still, there is much better treatment here than in other countries. I hope and pray everything works out great for you! I don’t know you, I read about you through the UPrinting Blog Sponsorship Program, yet my heart goes out to you and your family. You’ll get through this!
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My sister ballooned up like that. They did a cat scan and found a mass on her pelvis. Before being able to figure it out, she got so ‘inflated’ that they admitted her 2x in the past week and a half. They suspected colonitis but couldn’t do a colonoscopy because she is too compacted. They did a scope through her nose and found something wrong with her throat… unfortunately, that’s all I know. For some reason, no one tells me.
I am praying that they are able to move quickly. There must be something that can be done. This mess of not making more than $700 a month for a family of 5 is insane! There are a lot of sick people getting care somehow. The problem is that these agencies don’t volunteer anything.
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Wow – this is so sad!!
Keep your spirits up and hope for the best, but be strong when you have to be. You have a love coming your way from the blogosphere.
I used to work at a hospital and I think most people don’t know this, but you can set up payment plans on bills but more importantly, when you get to the chance where you can pay a fair amount—you can ask for a discount off the bill! When you call in and it’s a reasonable amount you can possibly pay, just let them know that you have a mound of bills for this medical issue and ask for a discount if you pay in full. It’s worked with me about 90% of the time!
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Strength and Prayers to you .
I’ve been tweeting for a few months and read some hard challenges people have but for some reason your blog has a way to transfer your spirit to people. I’m crying because it really touches me what you’re going through and yet I admire you too. I’m glad so many people love you and are praying for you., I’m going to join them You touched my spirit. I pray for all of you- you and your family!
God bless you!