When you live with something you can not change, you pretty much have to accept it. CRPS is a part of me. I always say that I have CRPS, but it doesn’t have me. I do not let it rule my life. Yea, there are days that I need to just stay on the couch and I hobble around like a 90 year old woman. But, if I want something bad enough, I suck it up and I do it. I may live a life in pain, but I refuse to live a life of misery.
Monday was a horrible pain day. We had rain all day Saturday and the pain kicked it up a notch on Friday. Saturday, a little more…then Sunday was BAD. Like had to talk myself out of going to the ER bad. Monday, eh…sucked. Monday is practice day for Roller Derby. So I told the team that I would be there, but didn’t know how much I could participate, but I would be there to try my best. We got to practice for the kids and found out it was cancelled, so we had some free skate time. I skated for over an hour with the kids until it was my practice time.
When it was time for my practice, I just kept on skating. Then for some crazy reason I decided that this horrible pain day was a good day to try to test out of group one. What? Why test on a bad day?? Well, I figured if I could do it on a bad day then I was ready to move on. Really ready! I took my time going through group one, a year to be exact. This is a group that a lot of people fly through in a few weeks to a few months. I waited a year.
It’s funny when someone adds the word “test” to something you already do, then suddenly your nerves get all wonky and you are tripping over your own feet or looking like Jane Fonda while doing a baseball slide stop…
The cripple has moved on to group 2…my first task in group 2 was not fun hahah! Dragging myself in skates across the floor using my arms and upper body only. EEK! I asked for a modification, then said screw it…I’m gonna try! You know what? I did it! Did it hurt? You better believe it! My right arm is the worst pain spot on my body. I did that!!! Mind over matter….suck it up and do what you want! Group 2, I plan to stay awhile…