Wow, can I take a second to toot my own horn and say that I am super proud and impressed with myself right now? Well, I’m going to!
CRPS/RSD has changed my life in many ways. It has taken things from me. But, it has also forced me to look at life differently and improve my attitude and health. My life is better. It is more painful, but better. There are many things I can no longer do, but I’m going to let that go. There is no reason to dwell on it. If you hang on too tightly to the past, you can not move forward. This mama is moving forwards!
I have to say that a key factor in this happiness I have right now is Roller Derby. It has been the best thing for me. I have been skating and I also joined a gym! Exercise is a key player in my disease. Getting out there and doing it is the hard part, but the benefits of getting it done are huge!
I have made it to the last few practices, including Saturdays! I have added Sunday and Tuesday skating in as well. That is 4 times per week that I am now on skates. I have added the Gym where I will walk at minimum of an hour on the treadmill. I can add in other things as my body allows. I push on through as my body calls me names and tells me I can not do it. I do it and say screw you! I can stop when my body is screaming no more and gives in!
I may move slowly through the Crash Test Hunnies training program, but that is ok. I am doing it! That is all that matters! I have amazing coaches that understand my condition as much as they can. They push me without over pushing me. They are the voice that says, you got this!
I have made friends! Friends that are supportive and have their own struggles. Those struggles are different than mine, but they are still struggling with something and they too are defeating it. Kicking ass and moving forward!
I love my painful life…I accept it!