You know…I’m really not that sure anymore. The answers to the questions that are asked of me have me confused and not understanding it myself. What is wrong with me is a question that people want answers to. Trust me, I want those answers as well.
There is no quick fix for what is wrong with me. It’s a hard condition to understand. Basically my answer to myself is SUCK IT UP. Right now I am rambling as I try to write my essay explaining how it feels. I’m not sure how to explain how it feels. Right now I feel like my skin is burning. I feel like sticks are being shoved in my veins. I feel like electricity is shocking through my brain, which in turn causes uncontrollable jerking of my head. I feel like I’m on fire. I feel like no one will get it, so I don’t talk about it all that much.
Getting out of bed is difficult, but you know what? I do it. I can either choose to take those steps and endure the pain, or I can choose to waste my life away. Who would choose to waste their life away? Plenty of people choose that! To them I want to yell at them to suck it up! There is always someone that has it much worse than you, so just do what needs to be done and deal with it.
I’m sorry you have cramps, I’m sorry you have arthritis, I’m sorry you have allergies. I’m sorry. But suck it up. I’m sorry that life has been hard for you. Suck it up and learn from it. Let your pain and heartache turn you in to something and someone better. There is always something worse than can happen to you. ALWAYS.
Vent complete…moving on…smile! Sorry if this made no sense…haha!