I don’t just mean tougher looking…I mean tougher in general. I know I am horribly behind on updating my blog, but I am recovering from a surgery that pretty much kicked my ass several times over.
I sit here and I stay at the computer trying to get the thoughts together so I can blog…sometimes it happens, but more often…it just ain’t happening.
I’ve learned a lot about myself and other people. It’s not a pretty place to be, but it’s a place I need to be. You would not believe the strangers that have reached out to me! I have not responded to the majority of you yet, but trust me I will. Just let me get through this. I do want you to know that your words mean so much and have helped me to learn a lot and see a lot more clearly.
Basically I was dying. That thing was killing me. It’s out now and I am recovering…but what now? Tomorrow I go to the Doctor and hopefully the reports are in. Tomorrow I should find out what this thing was that was choking the life out of me. I pray it isn’t cancer, but if it is…then we start a new journey and kick it’s ass with the help and support of my friends. Whether you are my “here with me friend” or my “internet friend”…y’all will help me beat it down!
I found support in the most surprising places and most of that I owe to the blogging community. Some of my friends probably do think I am a nerd for leaning so much on my blog, but you know what…so what. It’s what I do, it’s part of me and it makes me happy.
So here we go….to my new outlook and focus, a constant reminder that life is too short to not live it right.